Praying for someone who wants to be a part of my life.

Now what a title that was.  I am close to even gasping at it my self.  But that's exactly what I'm doing now.  Praying my heart out, being content and being at peace that there is someone out there praying to be a part of my life.  Someone who would die to spend their days and nights with me.

Today I thank God for that someone.

It's been a year since I left this blog.  PhD has totally taken over.  I've been doing experiments, writing manuscripts, reviewing peer-reviewed papers, going to classes and doing the usual, eating, drinking, sleeping, waking up and let's not forget, stressing!! :)

Well phewww! What a year that was.  It was certainly a loooong year that went by like a flash.  I've been so busy learning, so busy planning, so busy thinking, and so busy trying to organize my personal life, plus praying, falling, praying and falling again from time to time and all at the same time.

Tis been a year of change for me on so many levels too.  God knows how I waded through those deep waters.  The ups and the downs, the dramas and the chaos.  Those are the only things I could think of.
The happy times?  Well, sad to say, are not so much on my memory.  Truthfully, when I try to think of my happy times, the only thing I could think of is, that things could be worse.  So trash it.  Screw it.  I'd rather say God is good, God is great, God is faithful, than give myself brain damage trying to think of good times.

Now let's get back to the title.

So I've thought about it, and have decided to be single, and have officially been for the past months.

You know I've learned, I've thrived, I've prayed, I've cried and many times over I've gone crazy about this whole relationship/single/love life issue thing.  But recently, for the first time in years, I've actually been able to stand up strong, to not settle for whatever/whoever comes along, and to be at peace with myself.  To be at peace being single.  To be content that even if someone does not want me in their life, I can still go on living a contented life.  To do it because of me.  Because I choose to and not because of other people, specifically not because of a guy.

I will continue to pray, to thank God, to smile and be happy, be content and be at peace.   I stand my ground for peace of mind, for contentment, for happiness, for joy, for hope, for faith and for love.

For our lives are in His hands.  Our plans are in His hands.

Today I thank God for that someone.  I want to be a part of your life too.

Love, Ny.